Wednesday, May 21, 2008
{ 4:55 PM }
my mind ain't wokring well these days. Although the surface seem alryte, but it's not in me. I feel so sad, scared and guilty for thinking this way but I just can't help it. No one can confirm. No one can feel it and no one bother. People just think that I'm to free that's why I'm thinking this way. But have anyone wonder if people don't stop what their doing, it's just can't help in anyway especially when it's ended with "just playing".
Beening crying for 2 days. Dare not and don't feel like speaking a single words. Not to Rachel even. A friend who listen and always console me in the way that really open mind.
Don't know if you ever met someone like this before. Her words just solve your problems. I, myself is still not her yet. I know sometime my idea or solution is just so lousy that I feeling like slapping myself after thinking why I said that.
I'm tired of holding back but I'm scared of letting go. And who wins? 'SCARED!' I know I'm stupid to do this but I simply just can help it. I really hope the old saying works: "time will heal everything"
Silly of I that I thought this will not happen. But i'm wrong. Everything still have it good and bad. happy and sad, pros and cons.
Sitting beside the window, the breeze is good. Just hope that te breeze can speed up my time and things will be soon solve and over.
